Time to shift a little weight

During yet another post hiatus I made the decision that I'm too fat. Harsh but true. I'm all for body positive and loving your curves, but truth be told my body is just a little too old for all this extra weight I'm lugging around. I'm sick of aching joints, I'm sick of being out of breath (just walking upstairs in my own house is a struggle - embarrassing but true), I'm sick of feeling like I'm 80. I think I finally hit rock bottom when I realised that tying my own damn shoelaces was an effort. How ridiculous, I'm 42 years old and my 12 year old said "I can do it for you Mum".

So I'm putting it out there. I really don't care how many or few people see this, it's more making myself accountable in my own headspace. Yesterday I weighed in at 121.9kgs. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed about that number - it is what it is, but on my 161cm frame it's not healthy by any stretch of the imagination.

Yesterday marked the start of a kickstart diet. You know the very low calorie ones (VLCD), only I'm not doing shakes but doing the alternative meal plan to Optifast (approx 800 cal per day). I know there is going to be people who say that this diet is bad, wrong, unhealthy etc - but keep it to yourself. Let me tell you, nobody knows diets better than a fat chick so I don't want to hear your well intentioned advice. Just humour me ok. And if I complain - feel free to tell me to STFU.

At work it's it's not easy. I'm not usually a breakfast eater and I leave too early in the morning to comfortably eat beforehand. So I came up with a novel way to get a decent breakfast in. Toast made in the sandwich press (yes it was ridiculously flat - but hey it toasted) and a boiled egg that I'd cooked the night before peeled chopped and heated in the microwave.

Keeping it classy at work

Home is much easier but the temptation to snack is much higher. I've drank a ton of water today just so I wouldn't eat anything extra. At home at least my meals look much better.

This photo is instagram worthy at least

I'm off to hit publish now before I change my mind about this post. Will be back on Monday with week 1's weigh in.